Ah, okay. Here we go. The all important (or should I say self important?) blog. Meg moo, the thing you don't realize is that I have tons more time on my hands than you do to fill these pages with much, much whining. This can only drive one crazy. In any event, in search of self importance I googled my name (see, lots more time) and dammit there is another VM. How can this be? Can there be another one of me out there. Well, here she is http://shelter-hosting.org.uk/gallery/view_photo.php?set_albumName=album11&id=gath_victoria_macaskill It's heartbreaking to think I'm not as original as I thought. Oh well. I'm also very pleased to know that I can still look up what my 2003 triathlon results were. Lord.

Well, I was very optimistic at the start of the New Year for work, and it lasted 4 days. I am once again back to my funky self. 100% of the business is attitude, and mine just stinks right now. I have to snap out of this. It doesn't help though when your business meetings are filled with prophecies such as "This is the year the industry will change", "we will soon be obsolete", "stand tough against discount realtors, offer value". Shit, what do they think I've been doing. Anyway, I've been filling my day with thoughts of how I will make this next year a better one, how can I reach my goals, and how I need to get off my butt. I read these articles about people out there pounding the streets and it makes me realize how little I apply myself. It makes me want to jump off a ledge because I don't know how to better apply myself. I read this today: "You should get up every morning and give a silent prayer of thanks that selling is so difficult. If it was easy, the field would be flooded by amateurs and the amount you could earn would be greatly reduced. But because it is hellishly hard, by becoming very good at it, your future can be unlimited!". Now, should I rejoice or cry?

I think I am going to stop Fit-daying, as I feel I'm ready for the next step: "eating moderately without having to record our food". I usually land up gaining weight when I enter this phase but lets see how it goes. I was 154 today, which is 4 pounds above pre holiday weight. I figure I have only 51 more miles to run to lose it. I figure I should stop obsessing. If I obsessed as much about food as I did money I would be a millionaire. So, I am now going to strictly monitor my money diet (I did not partake in the office $6 taco bar after the meeting! Victory numero uno).

Okay, if only I could bottle that post new year euphoria and open it up right now. I hate this funk. How do you get out of the funk? If I don't change my attitude very soon I will be in very big trouble. AHAHAHHA.. Okay, let's start by thinking positive things. Positive thing #1: Texas won the championship. Go Texas. Why this is positive I have no idea since I don't usually hang the Longhorns membership up but at least I can claim a victory through some sort of affiliation to a successful. Okay, Positive thing #2: I am so freaking lucky. The other Victoria is out there fighting for hungry people and I am not one of them. Positive thing #3: I think I could beat the other V in an arm wrestling match.

Okay, off to the drawing board so that I can feel as though I actually did something productive this year. Oh, great news! I heard the KW office was bought out. I wonder what will happen to all of them? Very interesting indeed. I just called my friend there to set up a drinking date for next week so I can get the skinny. Excellent. I've done one productive thing today.

Oh, here is a picture(s) of the most adorable thing in the whole world
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