Curse of Four

I'm really annoyed. I have the curse of 4 when it comes to poker tournaments. Today starts week 7 on level 2 of the poker challenge. Of the 6 weeks prior 2 weeks I was one win short of moving up and in both those weeks I had a 4th place finish. Last week I had 3 wins with, here it is, four 4th place finishes. Cry me a river. As of this morning I have played 2 tournaments for this week, and yes, you guessed, I have placed 4th in both. I think there is a lesson here. I'm playing well but I am not playing aggressively enough to have enough chips for the end game. I have to be maximizing my wins to have the mula to make it to third. I seem to run low and play defense towards the end. Ah well, it's frustrating and annoying but I'm having a great time. It's nice to get away from work. Mike is working from home today so I can sit here next to him and play some Pokie and just chill. I welcome it but my competitive side can't help but be frustrated.

I'm excited today because I can (mostly) chill for the day. I'm going to buy my iPod today so I am very excited. Hopefully it will help out with the running. For some reason going to Sams club has never seemed so exciting. Lord.

I close on my house tomorrow, finally. I'm stressed because I haven't scheduled any contractors to come out yet and this means I have cost myself some money. I kept meaning to do it but work has been overwhelming. Last week saw 18 hour days and I was just beat. I have to balance this though because this is going to cost me money in other ways if I don't manage this property correctly. Shucks.

This weekend saw the listing in my Farm finally hit the market. I hope this means good things. I am so tempted to throw the farm away. I did an open house this weekend and it was very encouraging to meet neighbors and hear them say "You look so familiar". When I explain why they are very complimentary of the data I send each month and some said they read it very carefully. My managing broker informs me it may take 3 to 5 years for it to be fruitful. Hmmm..I've not yet completed 2. It's pricey at $500/month. I guess all the more reason to be working lots of hours.

Last evening we had dinner at a client's house. They are the most interesting people and I really enjoy their company. Her life story is so unbelievably tragic it makes you look into yourself and say "Get over it". I cannot comprehend so much pain, guilt, and tragedy in any one persons life. At one point she was emotional to the point of tears after telling us a story and I wanted to rush over there and hug her and say "It will be okay, you did your best" but I just didn't. I don't know why I couldn't but the pain was so raw and the emotion in the room so dense I was immobilized. It was a moment I will never forget. She is such a strong soul to be able to face the world as she does it makes me appreciate all the things I take for granted every single day.

Um, sorry. My seedlings seem to be doing well. I've not yet come to terms with the Canon purchase. I'm working on it but getting very nervous with the house coming up tomorrow. I think it is just hitting me now that the house is closing tomorrow. Yikes. Freaky.