I Don't Want TO!

I don't want to go running this morning. I cannot express in words the amount I detest running. I HATE it. For the past month or so I've been having a hard time getting motivated. Maybe it's time to try something new? What a thought! I'm not sure if it's the sun, if it's my lazy ass, if it's just burn out or what but I cannot tolerate it anymore. I've been procrastinating for the past 30 minutes and in the meanwhile it's getting hotter, and hotter, and hotter. I have to go running though because I'm 9lb overweight. Excellent. Maybe that is why I hate it. Because I have to do it. It's no longer an option instead it is a necessity. GRRR.

I woke up yesterday with a very annoying pain in my back. I'm not sure what it is but it's sharp, aggravating, and making me grumpy. I know it probably is due to this stupid mattress we have. I've been wanting to get a new one for so long but it's hard to coordinate buying such a strange item. It's not an item you can just pop out to go buy and required some coordination with our schedules. Hmmm...

Speaking of which life in the house has changed. Mike is working so hard which is good and bad. He comes homes, eats dinner, relaxes for 30 minutes, and then I don't see him until the following morning. How he wakes up I'm not too sure because I have a hard time getting up. The negatives are that we see less of each other now and he is working too hard. I think this will subside a bit in a month or so. The positives are that I don't feel guilty about working at night whereas before I would skip work to hang out. The difference is I quit at about 10 or 11 PM and he quits at 1 or 2 in the morning. This just hits home that we have a really long way to go in the work balance arena before we can even contemplate commitments. I'm just really really glad I can laze in bed until 7AM and get all my beauty rest. I don't know how he does it.

In the tournmanet front I'm not having a good run on this level. I come really close each week but I'm having a hard time distinguishing luck vs. skill. I'm just not feeling it. It seems to be totally random to me. Whatever.

I saw the most amazing house yesterday. It's the only Queen Ann/Victorian in Denver. It's 4 beds, 3 baths, 3000 sqft above ground and just stunning. My only problem is how do you determine market value for such a unique home!

Here is a pic from our hike to nowhere